Undressing my Conscience

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You held me tight as you

walked me to the mirror

slowly guiding me in front of me

now staring back is my reflection.

 

You asked me

What do you see

I smiled

and in my most authentic self

I expressed that I saw

deep brown eyes holding novels

and supermassive black hole galaxies.

 

I saw a woman that for many years I mistreated

that for many years I wanted to meet but was too afraid to approach.

 

A complete stranger to my own self.

 

I always wondered what it would be like to meet her

to get to know her fully,

so, I sat down and introduced myself.

 

At first, I was worried she wouldn’t like me

that the many years of abusive words and toxic treatment would cause her to shut me off

but she accepted me with a small smile and open arms

She softly spoke

Hello

and then she left me speechless.

I’ve missed you.

No need to be afraid.

I am you, you are me,

I am your reflection.

 

She explained that she was tired, but that she never lost hope.

She was willing to withstand her whole existence in pain with my constant demeaning words and hurtful ways if it meant that it kept me breathing. Not alive but breathing.

 

She accepted me as I was without an explanation.

She knew all of me and didn’t run

called it Unconditional Love.

 

I apologized to myself for my actions

knowing that she’s strong

but she doesn’t always have to be.

 

I met her for the first time not too long ago and I promised myself to visit often.

 

That day I looked up at her with my tear stained eyes from my hands and knees and I told her that I loved her.

I promised to never hurt her intentionally because

“If I can’t treat her how she deserves how can I expect anyone else to?”

 

She thanked me.

 

When I look into the eyes of her everyday through my reflection I thank her.

Every day I see a woman who I love.

Every day I see myself.

Gabriela A Tejada

 

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10 Comments Add yours

  1. vgeorg says:

    Gabriela I read a lot of poetry. You are one of my favorite poets. I admire your beautiful talent!

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    1. Wow! This means so much to me. I’m so touched that you feel this way 🙂 Thank you for the beautiful words and I hope that you continue to enjoy my poetry 🌙

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  2. TCast says:

    This is beautiful! Thanks for sharing.

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    1. Thank you for enjoying it! 🌙

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  3. DyanStorm says:

    It is a beautiful and well defined

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  4. alexraphael says:

    So much creativity

    Like

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